Knowing.

I've always wanted to let you know that I'm here.





Realised why i hate going to sleep.



Cos my mind refuses to shut those thoughts.

Wish someone could knock me out whenever I need to sleep.




Stars. <3

Fixed.

Decided to run today. 3km.

song on repeat during the run.

Weight losing program.

GP today. Advertisements FOR THE WIN.

neh.

waiting for a heartheartheartbreak

cos you're already gone.

Endless.

I've never had the habit of plugging in my earphones and fall asleep.




I did it yesterday, and im doing it right now.


I think maybe I fear silence now.
Makes my mind wander to neverland.





If I am lost for a day, try to find me.
But if I dont come back, then I won't look behind me.
All of the things that I thought were so easy, just got harder and harder each day.

Comfort.

I get this warm and fuzzy feeling everytime I hear those songs.




Surprisingly they're not love songs.



Some kind of connection.




Change in tastes and preferences.







Who knew?

Dead hearts ^^

TODAY WAS AN AWESOME DAY.

WENT AIRPORT TO STUDY AND SAW SHOOTING STARS :D

I THINK I MUST BE IN LUCK. I SHOULD HAVE BETTED ON SOCCER OR 4D.

SURE WIN.

BECAUSE..............

1) WE MET MERLY AND LEO.

2) WE WERE CAUGHT IN THE LIFT WITH MERLY AND LEO.

3) MERLY HUGGED ME.

4) I SAW A CROWD AT THE ONE OF THE GATES AND PEOPLE HOLDING BANNERS SO BEING THE KPO ME, I DECIDED TO JOIN IN. AND I SAW A DAMN HANDSOME GUY. FUCKING CUTE, CAME HOME AND REALISED HE IS KIM HYUNG JUN. MY GOD. THE GIRLS THERE PRACTICALLY WENT MAD.

HE IS CUTE.

5) I SAW THE YOUTH OLYMPIANS. OK NEVER TAKE PHOTO, BUT STILL AWESOME FEELING.

6) ON MY WAY HOME, I SAW...

To my dearest Pam:

I'll always be here if you need a shoulder to lean on.

Im not good at consoling, but i'll listen to all your worries.

Dont be rash, things will get better.

I love you.

OMG I MUST SAY THIS, SOMEONE BLOODY PRANKED ME WHEN MY PHONE LEFT BLOODY 2%.

2%!!!!! AND AFTER LISTENING TO THAT WOMAN'S CRAP, MY PHONE DIED.

ANDANDAND

WTF, ON MY WAY HOME I SAW A TRANSVERSITE.

AND HE/SHE WAS IN FRONT OF ME ON THE ESCALATOR.

THEN SHE SUDDENLY TURNED BACK AND SMILED AT ME,

FML.

SHE ASKED ME,'SEE MY NEW EYESHADOW EFFECT. PRETTY NOT?'

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!?

THEN I NO BALLS, ANSWER 'YAH, *SMILES BRIGHTLY*'

AND SHE LOOKED SO PLEASED WITH HERSELF/HIMSELF.

GOD AND SHE WAS ADJUSTING HER FKING WIG.

TRAUMATIZED.

I died so i could haunt you.

Present.

PWK says:

i will not ask u to stop eating

C says:

POOOK WEN KAI!

NONO

PWK says:

i think i dam bad

C says:

u must ask me stop eatingand run with me

PWK says:

keep stopping u from eating

C says:

no1

PWK says:

we are born to eat

C says:

must continue to say i fat

PWK says:

not eat to born

wah pook. You brightened up my day today ^^

Mahjonged my day away with pook, kenny, pyu.

GOSH, AND PRELIMS IN 3 DAYS TIME.

had such a good talk with sister last night.

just want to tell you guys to stop giving me false hopes.

tell me its impossible because i know it is:)

i've come to terms with it.

Thanks pook for the walk.

I have decided.

过了这一夜 我就全忘掉

Chanel, you only get to live life once.

Angstyyyyyyy much.

FMLx10000000000,

FYLx99999999999999999999999999.

I have so many bloody thoughts running through my mind right now.

I wish you werent part of the thoughts.

Kovan macs blackout = camwhore time.

Introducing my new boyfriend...

Phua Peiyu.

Can you tell me the truth?

Give up.

False hopes.

Worst thing on Earth.

Seriously?

j1 life= awesome.

whocaresifihadcenterparting.

GOOD LUCK BADGER:D GOTTA WAKE UP SO BLARDY EARLY TMR BUT IM LOOKING FORWARD TO BADGER PASSING HIS 2.4444444444444:D:D

stop lying to me/us, you still do.

woman's intuition.

mood damn bad now.

Burned Out.

So freaking tired. :(

But dont wanna waste my life away sleeping.

Gonna chiong econs today like so maddddddddddddddd dog.

i cant tell if i love or hate my dog.

ok hate 60%, love 40%

HHAHAHAHA S24, HERE'S SOMETHING I FOUND WHILE DIGGING THROUGH MY PHOTOS.

LMAO @ RAJAN REPLYING TO TEACHER WITH THAT VOICE. LOL.

'YOU THINK ITS VERY FUNNY ISIT?'

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO

Flip.

When im lost in the rain,

in your eyes i know i'll find the light to light my way.

I MISS PTJR.

I MISS OLI.

I MISS ZEST.

I MISS TK.

I MISS YOU.

AND SOMEHOW, I MISS YOU DAD.

you'll never get to see this,

but i always wanted to let you know that..

if you come back right now,

and take responsibility for what you've done,

i will forgive you.

but i know you will never come back.

i miss you bringing me around,

miss cycling with you,

miss fishing with you,

miss everything bout you,

but it sucks to know that,

you dont miss a single shit about your daughter here.

It broke my heart when you even forgot my age.

What happened?

Realization.

For everything you do,
I turn to you.





Wah epic, just saw two guys pushing a car.
Quite a funny sight.




Just saw someone fell down.
Epic again.



Craving for green tea latte.


But nope, it's KM again.



Thought provoking indeed.
To YJ: thanks for the gummies and maltesers. Love ya. ;)

Maybe two is better than one.

Come school seriously waste my time.





Omg I don't remember being this hardworking in j1.



Can't wait for 2011.

Prelims please screw yourself.


Since teachers always ask us to look at things in the long term,
I shall study for As and not for prelims heeeeeeeee.

Eventually.

**UPDATE**: TO PYU AND JERMAINE:

ARSENAL: 6-0

CHELSEA: 6-0

MAN U: 2-2

HMMMM.

Frankly speaking, i cant wait to see you on Friday.

Need to catch up with you:)

Dear MacDonalds, on account that i patronise you everyday, can you come up with a new menu?

I just realised something very wrong.

i pack my bag without looking at the timetable.

but its not cos i know what lessons there are,

but more like i pack according to what i feel like revising.

School sucks.

You! Yes you, you are the sex.

Lesson.

You must learn to let go.

Do not hold on to something that isn't worth holding on to.

fair-weath·er

   [fair-weth-er] Show IPA

–adjective

1.

used in or intended for fair weather only.

2.

weakening or failing in time of trouble: His fair-weatherfriends left him when he lost his money.

You were one of my priorities,

i was just one of your options.

Things will change.

Learn to treasure things before its too late.

BICSTYNTM

it's 3.42AM right now.

i have no freaking idea why im awake.

get out of my mind.

Something's very wrong with me.

I hate this damn feeling.

I've never felt this way, this damn shitty feeling.

First time in my life,

i spent the time outside, drinking iced latte, watching people, thinking bout everything that has happened.

First time in my life,

i didnt feel like talking.

First time in my life,

i wished for a soulmate.

Someone to sit there with me and not say a word but knows exactly how i feel.

First time in my life,

i wished i didnt have to wish for anything when the time strikes 11:11.

First time in my life,

i compare myself with everyone else and realise that i'm quite a failure.

First time in my life,

i thought about the meaning to life.

What on earth has happened to me?

I was never like this.

maybe im maturing.

changing.

for the better i hope?

Alone time= think too much.

But as what kenny said, i may just be straightening out my thoughts.

Tmr, 21st Aug, i have a date with myself.

and books.

I'm looking forward to it.

maybe the reason why i love to spend time alone now is cos i've never been alone for the past 3 years.

pros and cons.

To you: i wish you were like here for me. But you're not, fairweather friend.

Should I make someone a priority when they only treat me as an option?

uncertainties.

different wavelengths,

different frequency,

different period,

definitely wrong timing,

different speed,

impossible to superimpose.

how now brown cow?

okay, maybe i DO need a parachute.

Wedding.

Went to Miss Lim Yun Shyuan's wedding yesterday with ruby tanya and jac.

the bride was so beautiful, so happy, so blissful.

i feel happy for her.

When she walked down the aisle with her father, i teared.

stupid me, so emotional for what.

but at that point of time, i was envious of her.

Having able to find the love of her life and potentially being able to spend the rest of her life with him...

Congrats Miss Lim.

opps, Mrs tan i mean.

I was telling Jac about my black wedding the other day.

i was fantisizing of the theme, color code, layout, songs to play...

The inspirations came so naturally...

and then i woke up from the dream.

that wedding is so overrated.

that it is delusional.

that eventually, it all boils down to life after the wedding day.

and i just finished watching this hong kong drama. it was damnnn nice.

cried like some mad dog again. what's new.

and the male actor he was saying that he realised,

love isnt just about the two people.

it includes the family members as well.

which is so true.

It's you who made me this way.

I wish i didn't miss you this much.

Why cant you see what i see?

You will never understand,

you never did.

When it's time to say Goodbye,

say goodbye.

Religion.

I cant understand how people can be so holy...

when their daily lives are so screwed up?

Imagine, someone going clubbing and screwing herself up...

Her daily language is so damn vulgar..

She is so bitchy... (according to her blog, dont know her personally)

She drinks, swears, bitches and whatnots.

But yet on her blog she can be so...

spiritually 'alive'.

Isn't that just disgusting?

I really cant stand people like that.

Oh! And.

I CANNOT TAKE THE FACT THE SOME PEOPLE THINK GOING TO CHURCH IS LIKE GOING TO A SOCIAL GATHERING.

I mean, of course going to church is to meet friends and worship and pray and all...

but i seriously cannot stand those who go to church just for the sake of making friends and socialize...

you get what i mean.

and its so not me to type a long post about religion so im not going to!

Life is pretty mundane...

but i found my new bff!

:D:D:D:D have been staring at my new bff for hours!

MEET MACRO!

MACRO SO MACHO,

MACRO SO CUTE,

MACRO IS LOVEEEEE <33333

Undefeated.

Have been quite a mugger these few days except for some long breaks in between. :X

Had my first tuition today,

V-E-C-T-O-R-S.

YOU ARE DEAD FOR BT2 I TELL YOU.

BT1 I JUST DIDNT ATTEMPT FIGHTING YOU COS I WAS GIVING YOU CHANCE,

THIS TIME, MUAHAHAHAHAHA *ECHOES*

Im gonna complete a CSQ now!

wahlao, i think im sick.

sick as in, i suddenly like doing work now.

WHAT ON EARTH AM I THINKING?

Had yummy dinner just now.

Mummy's car went for servicing.

and we took public transport.

I saw a woman carrying a Prada bag, wearing a Gucci cap, getting up a SBS Transit Bus, and walking rather clumsily.

OH, wait, it was just my mother.

back to work!