Something's very wrong with me.

I hate this damn feeling.

I've never felt this way, this damn shitty feeling.

First time in my life,

i spent the time outside, drinking iced latte, watching people, thinking bout everything that has happened.

First time in my life,

i didnt feel like talking.

First time in my life,

i wished for a soulmate.

Someone to sit there with me and not say a word but knows exactly how i feel.

First time in my life,

i wished i didnt have to wish for anything when the time strikes 11:11.

First time in my life,

i compare myself with everyone else and realise that i'm quite a failure.

First time in my life,

i thought about the meaning to life.

What on earth has happened to me?

I was never like this.

maybe im maturing.

changing.

for the better i hope?

Alone time= think too much.

But as what kenny said, i may just be straightening out my thoughts.

Tmr, 21st Aug, i have a date with myself.

and books.

I'm looking forward to it.

maybe the reason why i love to spend time alone now is cos i've never been alone for the past 3 years.

pros and cons.

To you: i wish you were like here for me. But you're not, fairweather friend.

Should I make someone a priority when they only treat me as an option?

uncertainties.

different wavelengths,

different frequency,

different period,

definitely wrong timing,

different speed,

impossible to superimpose.

how now brown cow?

okay, maybe i DO need a parachute.